“If I had the passion to serve God, like I have passion for pornography, I would be unstoppable!”
My passion for sin was so great and controlling that to “transfer” this kind of passion towards God would make me “unstoppable” for the Kingdom of God. I mean, the insanity that comes with this sin is so great. The staying up through the night for one last image. Pouring your life into this never quenching pit is maddening. I have no idea how I survived this type of schizophrenic behavior. He desires the marital union to be honored (Hebrews 13:4), but we are full of dishonor. He wants to have intimacy with us and teach us how to have a greater intimacy with our wives, but we would rather chase idols. I should have been stamped out like Sodom and Gomorrah! I should have suffered greater loss!
But one thing I have noticed from the above quote, I focused on God first instead of sin. “If I had the passion to serve God.” Now I had my focus off sin and self and on the Lord. That is the key to victory from habitual sin. The very issue of habitual sin is that “I” am on the throne of my depraved heart. In fact, what kind of passion do you have for sin? How many hours have you “invested” in this sin?” Do you see a focus shift yet? Are you at the end of yourself. If so you are ready to be free (Titus 2:12). But if you are still number 1, then you are not ready for freedom.
His grace met me that night, it was time to release another captive (Isaiah 61:1). It was time for me to learn how to walk in His statutes (Psalm 119:16). It was time for me to be free to serve the Lord and to learn to love my wife (Ephesians 5:25). What a God we serve, full of grace and truth. What a patient God we serve, full of mercy and love. He canceled the record of debt that stood against us with its legal demands. This he set aside, nailing it to the cross (Colossians 2:14).
How can we have the passion to serve God like we have passion for pornography or any other sin? We must hate the sin that He hates! We must be broken, so we can be made new! We must be desperate for Him! We must understand that our sinful behavior has separated us from our God! He has turned His ear from hearing.
1 Thessalonians 1:9
9 For they themselves report concerning us the kind of reception we had among you, and how you turned to God from idols to serve the living and true God
29 But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul
Author: Erick Hurt
From a slave to sin–to freedom in Christ (Galatians 5:1). From an abusive husband verbally and physically–to loving my wife as Christ loved the church (Ephesians 5:25). Now an Elder at Family Bible Church, I speak, teach, and preach with the same passion I once had for sin. I work as a volunteer for Setting Captives Free ministry as a mentor and mentor coordinator helping people become freed from the grip of sin. Visit www.settingcaptivesfree.com.